7 months .

22 February 2012 . we are about 7 months being in a relationship. but at that day, you were sick. everything became worst when i was mad at ridiculous matter. i knew that was not your fault. but yeah, my bad to scolded you like that. i spoiled everything on our 7 month's relationship. i blame myself. i'm sorry. my bad .

there will never be a quote that explains how much you mean to me. never a song that truly hits the spot. not enough words to tell you how i feel. and not enough time to show you how long i want to be with you.


p/s : you mean so much to me faizulhadi badarudin.

busy

busy busy busy.
minggu yang sangat hectic sekali.
test, kuiz.
and unfortunately, i'm not prepare anything.
urghh. last minute jahh.

want to be like this :')

permainan

dalam percintaan antara lelaki dan perempuan yang mahram adalah satu kisah di mana kita menentukan sama ada si dia layak atau tidak dijadikan pasangan hidup. buat apa bercinta tanpa arah tujuan. buat apa bercinta sekadar suka suka. buat apa bercinta kalau pengakhirannya kecewa. buat apa bercinta kalau akhirnya tidak mahu mempunyai ikatan yang sah. ya, cinta tak semestinya bersatu. dan mencintai tak semestinya memiliki. tapi boleh dipertahankan. boleh dijaga. boleh dididik. dan cinta juga boleh dipupuk. bersyukurlah mempunyai perasaan cinta. kerana rasa itu datang dengan izin Allah swt. cinta itu satu anugerah.


tetapi dalam perhubungan, apa gunanya kalau hanya sebelah pihak sahaja yang mempertahankan hubungan. sedangkan yang satu lagi,tidak. apa gunanya kalau bercinta, tapi dalam masa yang sama dua-dua hipokrit. menipu sana sini. reka cerita sana sini. salahkan orang lain. masing masing mencari alasan untuk menutup kesalahan sendiri. pathetic.


jika gagal dalam percintaan, belajarlah dari kesilapan. perbaiki diri. fikir positif. jadi matang. jangan ulangi kesalahan yang sama terhadap pasangan yang baru. i'm learning diz. kegagalan masa lampau indirectly akan membuatkan kita kuat pada masa akan dtg. kesilapan masa lalu akan membuatkan kita lagi matang untuk bertindak.


to him who are no longer in better place of my heart and mind, please change yourself. even though i know that it is impossible for you to read this, but i still hope that you can think and act like a man. amin.


cinta manusia itu tidak kekal. terkadang tidaklah juga memberi manfaat. melainkan cinta kepada ibu bapa. as i grew up, i learned how precious my mother and father's love. they sacrifice a lot. too much. its impossible for me to pay the amount they had spent . and yet, still spending. alhamdulilah. i'm grateful that i lived in peaceful home with a lovely family. i love them!



p/s: HARAM jika jadikan wanita itu kekasih tetapi tiada niat untuk nikahinya. (ustaz azhar idrus).

rudeness

kau belum tahu erti penyesalan. kau belum rasa permintaan tidak dapat ditunaikan. kau belum rasa kegagalan. kau belum rasa kekecewaan. kau belum rasa kesusahan. umur kau dah belasan tahun. tapi tak pernah nak guna otak. kau kerah tenaga dan tulang empat kerat orang tua tu untuk memenuhi permintaan kau. useless laa kau ni. belajar tinggi tinggi, otak ada kat mana? hormat orang jauh sekali. mungkin cara didikan kau ni salah. aku benci kau.

parasite

"Ini bukan pelajaran biologi, tetapi ini tentang seorang anak manusia. Manusia parasit. Menempel di sana -sini. Hisap sana hisap sini. Ambil untung sana ambil untung sini. Dibenci banyak orang. Tetapi parasit tetap saja parasit. Ikut ke mana-mana. Tiba-tiba kamu rugi sekali karena ada parasit. Parasit yang menumpang, memakan tuannya sendiri. Sedih. "



p/s : I have often told to you that i'm that little fish who swims about under a shark and i believe, lives indelicately on its offal. anyway, that is the way i am. life moves over me in a vast black shadow and i swallow whatever it drops with relish, having learned in a very hard school that one cannot be both a parasite and enjoy self nourishment without moving in worlds too fantastic for even my disordered imagination to people meaning

i know, indeed.

yes you are busy right now. your design, your assignment, your presentation and so. i'm not going to disturb your emotion. but sometimes i just really miss you. i want to catch your attention. should i blame myself for being me?? i didnt mean to make you mad, tension or all. i understood enough how busy you are. but i cant hinder myself to keep texting you while you are busy. yes my bad.

but love, i wanna to give you a big thanks for the time spending yesterday. even it was a short met up, it was happy and unexpected. and thanks for the gift.





thiss :') i will keep the purple one with full of love. i promise you. iloveyou.







p/s : Soul-mates are people who bring out the best in you. They are not perfect but are always perfect for you.