buang masa!

cakap macam keling. aku tunggu kau, kau tidur pulak. back off!

its so hard not talking to you

for the whole day, i cant reach you. are you doing fine up there??
i miss you so badly. i wondering if i ever crossed your mind today. cant wait for tomorrow. please back early. i hope you are being protected now. please come back to me with the perfect you.



p/s : please get me as soon as possible !

unsaid feelings

manusia bebas untuk memberi apa juga pendapat. manusia bebas bersuara. manusia bebas berfikir. manusia bebas bertindak. apa juga pandangan seseorang terhadap aku, itu tak mampu mengubah prinsip dan pendirian aku. buat apa berlagak berharta sedangkan papa kedana. buat apa menunjuk-nunjuk sedangkan sebenarnya kosong. tak perlu meninggi diri. takda apa pun yang tinggi dan yang kekal. tak perlu mempertikaikan kelebihan orang lain. tak perlu mengira harta orang lain. jaga kain sendiri. jaga diri sendiri. takut memakan diri.



p/s: just keep moving forward and dont give a shit about what anybody thinks. do what you have to do, for you.

23 january 2011

done :

• kenny rogers
• ice skating
• pizza hut

p/s : thanks love!

yeahh 6 months!

dear, i cant promise you a perfect relationship. but what can i promise you is that if you are trying, i'm staying. you are here all along. keep walking beside me through my hardest time. arguments, joyness, laughters, stupid jokes, clumsiness, problems, worries, madness, pain, mistakes, and etc, we had share it all. i appreciate and thanks to Allah because sending u here. alhamdulilah. lets try to keep our relationship stronger, keep loving each other, and focus more on our study. please dont give up on me because deep in my heart, there is you and ILOVEYOU!



p/s: to be honest, you are the one i've ever spent this much time and effort on.

marginalized

she is beautiful, talented, gorgeous, amazing, awesome, kind, humor and etc.

you are qualified to catch others attention. you deserved that. but that is not your pass to looking down to others. you dont even know the capabilities of them. inferior. thats what i felt. no one gonna trying to defend me in the arguments. but only one people that can make my tears drop down even he wasnt done and said anything. my dad. you are the reason i'm here. you dont know that sometimes i too pity on you. you are stronger than you are. you are tougher than you are. you keep everything inside. you smile even i know that its hurt. your patience make me thrilled. i love you. and to her who the one i love most, please try to be independence. no one will save you. and please do remember, you are not the princess.



p/s: bersyukur dengan apa yang ada. redha dengan apa yang tiada. inyaAllah ketenangan pasti dirasa.

frustrated

bila dah jumpa someone yang menepati kriteria sebagai suami, kita pulak tak menepati kriteria sebagai seorang isteri terhadap dia. hati dah terpaut, tapi ke laut. yang diinginkan tak dimiliki. orang yang kita suka, tak suka kita. orang yang kita tak suka, suka kat kita. how come? menerima kerana ditolak. sekarang melihatnya bahagia dengan pilihannya yang telah mampu membuka hatinya.alhamdulilah. dan aku, masih ingin menjadi teman dan sahabatnya yang setia walaupun ada ketika cuma diperlukan. tapi itu tak mampu memadam sekelumit perasaan yang pernah wujud terhadap dia. ikhlas aku mendoakan kebahagiaan dia.


jiwang kott!


p/s : you have no idea how hard it is.

another fool

lately, i felt seriously so fucking damn stupid.i cant even do the smallest and easiest things.
i've done very stupid matters.put a blame on me. should i? yesterday, i was given my test 1 marks. i got lower marks and felt embarrassed. damn. kamon lahhh weyhh! you are the second sitter kott.still cant doing well? still cant perform yourself? wanna be a third sitter in future? urghhh! losing spirit.totally lost.

p/s:when the heart grieves over what it has lost, the spirit rejoices over what it has left.

HIDUP

kita tak boleh nak tutup mulut orang dari bercakap apa pun,
sebab orang lain pun tak boleh nak tutup mulut kita dari bercakap apa pun.
inilah manusia. mana-mana pun sama jugak. mana mana pergi pun akan sentiasa ada yang tak puas hati, yang mendengki, yang menyakiti. buat baik salah, buat jahat lagi la salah. abez tu boleh buat apa? apa pun tak boleh. jadilah anti sosial. tapi orang yang anti sosial pun ada jugak yang tak puas hati. susah kan? this is nature of life. dah memang lumrahnya manusia memang macam tu. sebelum cakap orang, muhasabah diri dulu. selidik dulu. bawak cerita sana sini. konon kau tu innocent sangat. kata orang sana sini. konon kau tu baik sangat. apa yang kau cakap tu, tak semua boleh pakai. get your life girl! kalau kawan baik kau sendiri kau boleh caerita sana sini pasal dia, apatah lagi pasal orang lain. kadang kadang mulut bising ni susah jugak. banyak yang auta dari yang fakta.

p/s: sometimes the only way to realize you are in a bad situation is to walk away and see it from a distance.

urghh!

kenapa banyak sangat problem aku dengan kau akhir akhir ni?
aku rindu laaaaa!


p/s : never forget how much i love you.

i'm sad :'(

seriously, i'm tired of this way.
misunderstanding happened everyday,every second.
we are not same in terms of whatever.
i thought a different world can be one.
a different heart can be one.
a different mind can be one.
and a different us can be one.
but we were always separated in every ways.
every time i tried to put the walls on, it collapsed.
stupid.shit.fool.fuck.damn.

p/s: kebodohan saya terselah apabila saya mengeluarkan soalan yang tiada jawapan. pathetic.

such a hectic day :|

malacca-semenyih-damansara-kuala lumpur-semenyih-malacca.

tired.weak.lazy.uncontrollable.moody.misunderstood.HAPPY.

*cant wait for the next journey.darling, here i come :)

birthday boy !

happy birthday to faizulhadi badaruddin.
wish you success in whatever you do and get a better life.
good luck and take care yourself.
study smart over there.

happy new year :)

The new determination to be fulfilled:

• FINISH UP my study ON TIME!!
• Graduate with the good CGPA. InsyaAllah.
• Matang berfikir, matang bertindak dan matang menilai.
• Persetankan mereka mereka yang men-downkan dirimu. nahhh!
• Struggle more.
• Use time wisely.
• Menjaga apa yang ada sekarang. (family and love).
• Menjaga solat dan tingkah laku.
• Happy kan orang orang yang penting dahulu.

p/s : Cheers to a new year and another chance for us to get it right.